PAGING: LEO LOOB/AKA MR LEO

[ROBERTVOZZA]

Hey Mr. Leo...I have been wanting to invite you to play in this Years 2006 LOTO INVITATIONAL TOUR, but didn't know you new handle here since we changed the boards a year ago...If interested, go to the thread with the same name in "Ind. League Chat" - take a look at the format/Rules and signup procedure. I put your name on the list. Find it and list your Numbers for OVERALL Rating next to your name in parenthesis. Hope you'll join us. Thanks :wink:

Robert(aka Swpsychic)

[Leo / loob]

Robert, thank you so much for the invite. However, I am sad to say that at this moment, I must decline.

I have two commitments that I must keep up with as far as SOM goes. They are the Barnstormers Tour, and the 80's Bracket Tourny.

As for # of teams I have at the moment, they total 5 (!), normally, under regular circumstances, they would number in the 20's.

As I type this, I am sitting on my only piece of furniture I own, my computer chair. Seems sorta funny, that a man like myself, that works 7 days a week, 80 hours a week, would hacve nothing left in his apartment, but its true. When Melissa left (again) I left her take all the furniture. She has our son 85% of the time, and I dont want him to go without what any normal, almost 3 year old should have.

Having the opportunity to be a single man, I, have not been very frugale with my money lately. I took two weeks off from my day job, and my night job, peddlin pizzas (again) the instant cash was too much for me to be frugale with. Essentially, I would work till midnight, and then off to the bar, close that at 2ish, and then off to the diner. I tried to close that everynite, but, being a 24 hour establishment, I usually give up trying at 5 AM or so.

So, alas, I sit on m y chair, getting ready to take a nap on my bedroom floor (lol), and, do it all over again (the bar and diner thing, after work that is).

Thursday, I went back to my day job (with a pay raise actually!), so, it will take 2-3 weeks till I get some normal checks comming in, and, working during the day, I wont be able to spend money like its burning the perverbial hole in my pocket.

Melissa is going to help me put my cash from tips in the bank everyday, as I work 6-4 monday thru thursday, and then 5-12 in the evenings monday thru trursday again. Fridays I peddle pizza 4-2 AM, same for Saturdays, and Sundays is my off day, I "only" work" 4-8ish or so.

Money wont be an issue in a few weeks, desire to make it, however is. I have always been a man that needs a reason to, now, that we are seperated (again), I lost my reason.

Overall, I am doing well enough emotionally, I guess. And I do know that I need to keep busy or I'll lose it. I've become a diner-rat, dependant on the need to be around people. hell, I know all the waitresses by name, on all 3 shifts (lol).

I know that everything happens for a reason (so they say), but, as I stated many times before, what the hell did I do to deserve this?

Ah hell, just ramblin' now, I chat at ya later.

Oh, thanks for "listening"

Michael.......

[ROBERTVOZZA]

For you, Michael...It is amazing how much your marriage and your means mirror my 1st marriage - maybe marriage in general. I work ridiculous hrs for my age and the amt of injuries my body has sustained. I deliver flowers and packages (Days) and pizza/Italian food (Nites.)

We are similar in our material generosity, ability to work hard and need for stimulation and attention, I suppose - especially from members of the opposite sex.

Where we may possibly differ is that I really do like living alone, but I stay in my 2nd marriage because I like being around my daughter and vice versa...And I really do love my second wife, but we are both very different Regionally(I am very intense, East coast, Italian - She's Midwest), Generationally(I'm a boomer, she's Genex) and family styles growing up. I am an only child, adopted, independent, great parents etc.

She is the oldest of 7 and came from a family of Holy Rollers - I am definitely Ex - Catholic and not vbery Religious. We are likely moving into separate places after out current lease is up, but it is temporal and conditional. We are still motivated to make it work and plan to still be together, just living apart.

There are lots of ways to make challenges workout and the more creative, flexible and sincere one is, the better chance you have of working things out very amicably.

If you work 80 Hrs and only have a chair, table and computer, you might want to stay home a few nites a week, purchase yourself a bed - or even something that serves 2 purposes - Like a futon couch - You can get them new or slightly used for the price of a few nites out...you can also furnish an entire Apt. or home for a couple hundred bucks, if you're willing to shop used furniture stores or places like Good will, etc. - Where, if you look close enuf, you can actually find some great stuff.

I think once we realize that it isn't the type of car we drive, or house we live in, or designer clothes we wear, or jewelry or job we do that matters as much a s that we have a roof over over head, transportation to get to work, clothes on our back or a bed to sleep in.

The status thing is only ego related and not as important as having what we need or what really matters - Self acceptance, Self love, an appreciation of what we have(Gratitude) and an idea who we are and why we are here. Once you have that figured out, all the rest is focusing on how to achieve those purposeful goals.

My favorite line from Lord Of The Rings Trilogy is: "All that matters is what we do with the time we are given." I have always believed that life is a privledge and a gift. And that it consists of a block of time that we have a choice what to do with or how to use it.

The thing any human being enjoys most about their lives is what I call "Flow." Flow is what occurs when you are doing what you have come here for...It is when you do what either makes you feel most personally satisfied, gives you peace, or something related to your gifts - meaning what you are best at and allows you to sleep at night when you have finished your day. Flow is when you enjoy what you do so much, that you lose all sense of time and it isn't until you actually become aware of time, that a lot of it has passed.

That's the equation, the blanks that need to be filled are always up to you...So, if at all possible, try to use this healthy alone time to get back in touch with yourself or the source - whatever that may be to you.

I don't know what your spiritual or religious beliefs are and I am in no way a preacher...Nor is this in any way meant to be a lecture. These are just some of the things that I have done in very similar life situations to get myself thru the most difficult days.

I will invit you again next year, because I have always liked interacting with you and respect and admire your honesty and candor about sharing your personal life with people you do not really know.

But I will pray for you and root for you to get through this experience, as I did last time and will again in the future. GL with it...Strat is really just a game with no real benefits other than entertainment. It is a nice challenging and harmless distraction, but in no way even remotely important compared to the game of life.

My best, as always... :wink:

Robert(Swpsychic)