perception vs reality

After blowing another 3-1 first round lead and blowing a lead in game 7 to lose another first round series by one run. The perception is that I lose every series in 7 games and always by one run, but the reality is very different. I am actually 6-13 in 7 game series and 2-6 in one run game 7's. However last 7 I have 6 first round exits and one finals defeat. Including my first three barnstormer teams all division winners all bounced in first round.